Matty Mac: Living Life to the Fullest
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
ReTestimony 2018
Thursday, July 31, 2014
For Those That Want a Quick Read...
I am at the point where I am wrestling with a lot of things. I mentioned earlier that I was taking a break from being on a lot of social media because of various things in life that have challenged me as a person. I will not go into detail publicly about what is happening but I will let you know that it has challenged my innermost being as a person, even to the point that my faith was rocked to its very core. I look at people, life, circumstances, past relationships, lost friendships, betrayals, etc. and various emotions go through my mind including: why me? why do I feel like I get the short end of the stick? how is it that others can get completely happy and I cannot be totally happy?
I appreciate those people that have gotten a chance to talk with me personally and mention that it looks like I am always happy, that they wish they could be as happy as me, and that it looks like I have it all together. I appreciate those comments, but I am only human. I go through my various emotions, I think about what if, I wander why certain things happen the way they do, I have my days where I feel like the whole entire world is against me. When I get on Facebook anymore I tend to see people I have been with for instance and see them happy with other people. I found myself thinking that "oh yeah, I have moved on, when in reality even the sight of seeing this person that used to be associated with me so happy with someone that seems to have it more together than I. Or, when life tends to deal me a bad hand of cards and I am challenged to the core of my existence. Some days I wander why does it feel like I am the one laughed at, why am I the one who gets the short end of the stick, and why I feel like I am the one that gets the negative attention.
This is a whirl-wind of chaos that truly seems unending, brings me to the core of impatience, and gives moments of negative mindsets that challenge me as a person. As I take a break from Facebook (except for talking with friends on Messenger and checking up on friends from time to time), go off the wire on Twitter for awhile, not posting on Instagram, etc. I hope to look at these circumstances and answer these questions in the best way possible. Before you begin to ask I am not becoming a non-believer and loosing my faith in Christ because I look at the story of Job and this is the best example of loosing everything and my life is not that bad compared to this story but I do need to see what is next in this chaos. Thank you everyone for listening for those that chose to read and listen.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Valentine's Day Visit with My Girlfriend and Her Daughter!!!
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| Miss Ely enjoying my old favorite stuffed animal!! |
Her gift, as seen in this picture, was a stuffed dog named Wrinkles that I played with when I was Ely's current age. I gave her a story about this little boy and how he thought he had everything, but there was one thing he was missing. The one thing he was missing was a friend, and did not know where to find one. So for Christmas this little boy wanted a friend and his family had a great idea. They got him his very own friend, and stuffed dog that he took everywhere with him. This dog quickly became his friend and he wanted to show him off everywhere he went. Well, this boy became older and did not play with Wrinkles as much as he used to. I told Ely that this little boy was me and that Wrinkles needed a new owner that would take care of him like I did. Ely quickly smiled and agreed to watch over my friend and I played with Wrinkles one more time with Ely.
I then got to see my amazing girlfriend after work in Jasper. Even thought it was for a short time it was great to see her wonderful self :-) ;-) I realized that she has a lot going on and we have not been able to talk as much. It has been emotional for me because Mandy is the love of my life and I love being able to hear from her as much as I can. I told my very amazing girlfriend that she resembles a gem to me and this treasure is something I will hold onto the rest of my days to come. I also gave Mandy her Valentine's gift, which was a customized M&M set with our first picture and messages that mean a lot to us.
I am very happy and amazed to have the most amazing girls ever. First, the most amazing, beautiful, and sweet little girl that could ever enter my life and to call her my own. Most of all, I now have the most amazing, beautiful, wonderful, and gorgeous girlfriend that I could ever ask for. Each day I wake up I realize how happy, amazed, and joyful I am to have the most amazing relationship in front of me. My message this month for my family is commitment... let us continue to stay committed to one another as we already have been since day one! I love my amazing family, my girls, my life!
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Thanksgiving in Florida!!
Never would have I imagined that I would be traveling during the Thanksgiving season. A couple of days ago I found myself packing a car, and after church spending the next few hours on the road! I remember my mom and grandma constantly asking me if I needed a break, or even to rest. I remember myself laughing at those remarks and calling myself a machine on the road.
From Sunday morning to Monday night I was on roads that ranged from beautiful country scenic drives to construction zones on interstates!!!!!! One of the first major stops my family and I had was at Talladega, Alabama. Little did I know that the hotel we were staying at for the night was within five minutes of Talladega Superspeedway. It was neat to take a track tour and observe the size of the facility. I remember standing in victory lane and thinking of all the drivers that have stood here, ranging from retired drivers to rookies!!
I currently have traveled over 1,000 miles to my destination at Fort Myers, Florida. This Thanksgiving meal will be one of the biggest I have had in recent times, and it is good to be with family I have not seen for a long period of time. May you all be blessed and encouraged through Christ alone, and may we all be thankful for everything we have!
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Striving to Stay on the Straight and Narrow...
There are some things that took place at camp that I never thought would have been possible. I came to camp this summer not knowing anything about archery, high rope setup, etc. and for the most part this summer I have been working at the rock wall and high ropes systems as well as teaching kids how to shoot a bow and arrow onto a target. The activities that took place this summer were in areas I had no previous experience in, but at the same time I do believe this is what Christ wanted me to see and experience these last few months. A famous phrase in the Gospels is ANYTHING IMPOSSIBLE WITH MAN IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD. What a phrase that Jesus uses Himself to talk to His disciples, by saying that to get live righteous in God's eyes that this is impossible, but through Jesus Christ Himself all things can and will be possible. I look on the summer that had taken place, along with the new week ahead, and look at Christ Himself in all of the picture. There are times where I was angry, lost, stumbling, tempted, etc. and it helps me realize that I just need Christ more.
So, looking ahead, I see the last week of camp and the sunset even brighter than before. This feeling is bittersweet... knowing that the end is near for the summer of 2012 (as well as the end of my last summer break period). God has been able to do far more remarkable things than I could begin to talk about, teach on, or minister to people on. God is bigger than all of these things and is bigger than our own imaginations. Christ made our minds, as small as they truly are in the grand scheme of things, and made them to think, intellect with others, prosper, etc. To fathom the mind of Christ would be to go to a beach and start counting the number of grains of sand that are laying around. This would:
- Be pointless, because there is always new grains of sand that arrive out of the waves in the ocean.
- Be long, this would not take a day or even a year, this would take more like a lifetime
- Be stressful, come on... we as people have trouble in everyday life with mere tasks, how much bigger would this be.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
The Sunset Is Becoming More Evident...
There are only two camp groups left before I return home from my summer of ministry. Last week we had our first of two CYSC groups (which are the two Catholic groups that rent out the camp property). This group is definitely loud, crazy, full of life, and ready to take on new challenges. This past week I had some of the biggest challenges that I faced this summer. I can already see, just from this past weeks experience, that what the Catholic group believes is different from the Christian environment that I have been involved with. Through the week I had some of the most interesting discussions with people about what they believed, their prayer life, etc. and at the same time was challenged with some things that were brought up through the week. My week actually got to a point where I became very negative in my own personal mind and that the Bible meant nothing to me because I could not follow it (my own words). I had one of the biggest downfalls at the midpoint of the week because of some things taking place in the group and at the same time I found some of the staff that I work with (the other guys) came up to me and offered prayer, support, and even a foot washing as a sign of love and direction to Christ. This group also has the most programming that I have done in any given point of the summer. The programming for 200 plus campers averages to about six hours a day which equals to 30 hours by the end of the week. WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is a lot of ropes, archery, and team-building (WOOOOOOOOOOOOO)!!!!! Even with the busy schedule I found that this week challenged me in my programming areas as well as my patience and respect to the people around me.
This week, looking back, needed to happen for the growth and maturity that Christ is trying to use. There was a scripture that came to my mind that relates to this mindset that was used in 1 Peter...
Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good. (1 Peter 2:2-3)
Being in the Christian life is very much like growing up in a physical life. In the day to day physical life you start out as a newborn baby and work your way through adolescence (so much fun)!!! teenager, young adulthood, adulthood, and the final stage of old age and eventually death. The spiritual life is very similar to this setup in terms of the stages of walking with Christ. When we find Christ scripture says we "become a new creation" (2 Corinthians 5:17) it is like the spiritual birth that people find when they accept Christ for the first time. As we grow up in our faith by watching others and filling our minds with every great thing that comes from Christ (Philippians 4:8-9) we become like a child and falling in love with the life Christ provides. As we grow up we realize that Jesus is the true source and we are part of Him (John 15:1) and that is when we grow up and find what is true and false in this life. Jesus had a way of using this life so that we may find Him, love after Him, and desire more of His mercy. There is no longer a need to go through other sources to get to Christ, for we have DIRECT ACCESS to our Father that says that we are no longer considered workers but part of His perfect family (Galatians 4:7).
As the summer winds down and the end is near for my last summer ever of camp ministry I look back at the other years that I have been involved with camping and what God has done through every season. As I look back to when I was 15 and first becoming a counselor by becoming a Counselor in Training (CIT) I did not appreciate this life as I do at 24 and nearly at ten summers in summer camp ministry. Going from a volunteer CIT to a Program Manager has not been an easy route but it has been something that I look back on and thank Christ for all that He has taught me, even in the times when I was not serious about Him. In the end I realize that I just want and desire more of Christ and His grace and truth, to be intertwined in His presence. Be blessed everyone, and for this week be praying for God's spirit to impact every crevice of my life and for my life to be parallel to His life.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Pondering Toward the End of the Summer...
I AM NOTHING WITH CHRIST!!!! NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED CHRIST, I NEED HIS PRESENCE, I NEED HIS HEALING POWER, I NEED HIS MERCY, I NEED HIS ESSENCE, LORD, I NEED YOU COMPLETELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This has been one of the hardest lessons to learn, and to this day it is still hard to grasp. This summer has not only been the biggest learning experience that I have had in recent years but it is also been the one that has provided the best growth professionally, physically, emotionally, and intellectually. I am working in program areas that before the summer started I had no prior experience in. I am a regular at the rock wall where I either belay people up the rock wall, repel them down the wall, or run the zip ladder from time to time. I can also be found teaching kids how to do archery, hold a bow and arrow effectively, and shoot at a precise level. Sure, I have only been learning these activities for part of the summer but doing them over and over has caused me to find a passion in them and find a way to impact lives through the activities. I even found myself telling my grandma the other day that I may have found a new hobby with archery and may even find some facilities to shoot around from time to time.
I cannot stress it enough in this post, OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME AND WONDERFUL GOD!! There was a couple of verses that I read yesterday that really impacted my face and faith at the same time. Both are found in 1 John. 1 John 4:4 says...
You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.
1 John 5:5 says...
Who is He that overcomes the world: He who believes that Jesus is the SON OF GOD!
Through the summer I have been keeping verses on a sticky note on my desktop of things I need to remember, live by, and also: LIVE OUT! That is one of the biggest lessons that I have learned this summer. We as people of God need to live out our faith, not just look at it and think it is a beautiful thing and then go along with that. God is HUGE and WANTS 100% of WHO WE ARE! This is truly the hardest thing to grasp and I continue to pray that He will show how this looks and how this is used in today's life. Be blessed everyone through Christ alone!
